I am in an interesting head space at the moment. One which I am entirely grateful for.
Mindful of gratitude.
I think it started when my commercial neighbours were harassing me to the point where it was affecting my health. I needed to find the good side in it.
And I did!
One of my biggest fears was having someone online hate on me and I’d just collapse. Shut down and crawl back into my shell. Now I know that haters can hate but it’s not my problem.
But I also learned that the ongoing hate I’m still getting from some people in the small town I live in showed me that I desperately wanted to belong. To fit in. And it hurt because they’ve made it clear I’m not welcome.
Guess what? Now that I am aware of what’s going on in my head and heart, the hate washes off me. Their rejection isn’t my problem. I’ve got my own tribe and I can belong anywhere.
I’m going through a minor situation right now where someone has let me down.
Do I rail against this person? No! I look for the things I need to learn. They taught me where I was assuming. They taught me to look for details I’ve overlooked.
And they taught me that people are complex shades of grey. There is no line between us that makes them worse and me better.
I am so grateful for the lessons learned.
And you know what? I’m finding myself more at peace when I look for that sweet spot of gratitude.
How awesome is that?