Yesterday, I announced I was leaving pop art altogether. I want to pause here and assure you all that this announcement does not affect Finding Inclusivity.
That project is a go and while running slightly behind, will be launching to crowd funding shortly.
For most of my followers, this announcement was a complete surprise. Out of left field. And I know a few wondered if I’d been drinking my paint water.
The answer to the last one is no. LOL.
I share a lot publicly because I believe in sharing the journey as an artist. It’s not just roses and happy cloud paintings. There’s a lot of self doubt, a lot of anxiety.
So much anxiety.
I debated how much to share because it’s hard. I already spread my heart out on every canvas and invite strangers to look. I wanted to keep a little bit of myself to myself. To hold tight and protect.
But the thing is, I am changing EVERYTHING right now. What I paint, how I paint, how much I share and where my work is going to be seen. All of it.
And while it’s scary to toss my art career up in the air like a salad, it needs to be done.
I’ve decided to listen to myself. My anxiety. My inner voice. Whatever. And change things up.
And here’s the thing that blew my mind: one of my friends told me this:
as Antonio Machado says: “Caminante, no hay camino, se hace camino al andar.”
Traveler, there is no path. The path is made by walking.
(This friend, is an author and thinker of big things, Marina de Boer. You should really check out her site and writing http://www.marinadeboer.com/)
In life, we often think that we are following a path. One that is laid out by others ahead of us. Steps to success. A stairway to climb. And sure, there are instances of that.
Right now, I take comfort in those words. That I am creating my path as I go.
We are all creating our paths. That maybe there is no path to follow so we’re not as tied to expectations, or trapped by a path as we thought.
I’m reminded of that moment in the first Matrix movie. Where Neo is watching a child bend a spoon with his mind.
The Matrix (1999)
Spoon boy: Do not try and bend the spoon. That’s impossible. Instead… only try to realize the truth.
Neo: What truth?
Spoon boy: There is no spoon.
Neo: There is no spoon?
Spoon boy: Then you’ll see, that it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself.